9 months feels like *such* a long time, but it’s finally hitting home that in a few more weeks, I won’t be pregnant anymore, and we’ll have a baby boy! Truthfully, it’s hard for me to even wrap my mind around it. I’ve been full steam ahead with all the preparing, buying car seats and setting up the nursery and touring preschools, but the reality of this little human being who’s about to be our responsibility for the next eighteen years?
Still a little terrifying.
But last night, I had a dream that was nothing like most of my pregnancy dreams, in such a wonderful way. In most of my baby-related dreams, something goes horribly wrong. During the first trimester, I had almost constant nightmares about me not being able to care for the baby properly — my rational mind knew they were just a product of my pregnancy hormones and first-time-mom nerves, but it was still awful to experience that so frequently, even though it wasn’t real.
This one, though — it was different. In this one, the baby was born happy and healthy. Breastfeeding was easy (I can’t tell you how many nightmares I’ve had about breastfeeding — my subconscious is terrified of it!). And for the first time, I actually had a moment in the dream where I saw the baby and fell completely in love with him.
I know, it was just a dream. I’m still terrified of so many things that could go wrong in the next few weeks, and could still go wrong once he’s born. But it was nice to remember, even in the middle of a dream, that it won’t all be worries and anxiety and fears that I’m making every mistake in the book.
Sure, there will be those moments. But I’m also about to meet the little guy who’s going to become one of the most important people in my life. Who I know I’m going to love until the day I die. And that’s a pretty amazing thing to look forward to.
13 more weeks!
How far along? 27 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 18 pounds.
Maternity clothes? I’m so over maternity clothes at this point, which is sort of funny because I’ve also just hit the point where I really need them. I’m trying to go back to options in my regular wardrobe that are big enough to fit over my bump!
Stretch marks? Still no! Good reminder to use my belly oil, eek.
Symptoms: Lots of difficulty eating and sleeping. I can’t eat much at a time, and it just feels like there’s not enough room in my body for food and the baby.
Sleep: I can’t seem to get comfortable when I sleep either, but I know that’s pretty typical at this stage.
Best moment this week: Deciding last minute to go to Fashion Week!
Worst moment of the week: Suddenly needing outfits for three days of fashion week with no time to shop, eek.
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? Every once in a while, I kind of miss being able to have a glass of wine. Overall, though, not drinking is SO much easier than I thought it would be!
Food cravings: Cake frosting, Doritos. Gotta get them in while I can!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope.
Have you started to show yet: YES!
Labor Signs: Nope.
Belly Button in or out? In.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy!
Looking forward to: FASHION WEEK! (And also to having this trip safely behind me and getting me and the baby home safe and sound!)
Last but not least, I thought it would be fun to put together two photos of me in the same outfit, one from midway through the second trimester! As you can see, my belly has definitely changed a TON in the last 8 weeks!